So i started growing boobs. Thank god, at 20 i actually had some boobage. I’ve lost a stone in 6 weeks, boobs have gone. GREAT.

I went out last night and didn’t get in until 4am. Didn’t go to sleep while 6am, and then i was awake at 9am. Im so tired. Me and Katie spent all of today in bed, laughing, talking, eating bacon, feeling sick and feeling sorry ourselves. Although we got up at 5 and went to her house where we just ordered mounds of Chinese food and it was absolutely amazing.

I am just about feeling better / not hungover anymore. I was far too drunk last night, i haven’t been like that in a long time, but it was nice to let me hair down abit and think “fuck it”. God knows. Too hungover to think about anything today and now im in bed and have to think about work tomorrow which is not going to be very fun. Shit’s going down. I just want an easy life, have loads of money, have my apartment, get drunk and don’t have hangovers!

For as long as I can remember I’ve always had dreams about aliens. They’ve always been scary dreams, either they are trying to get me or they are visiting us to mark the end of the world and kill everybody. Last night in my dream I remember being with my mum and looking straight up in the sky and all these lights started appearing. They got closer and closer until we realised there were thousands of spaceships coming to land on Earth and end the world. I’ve realised now I have these alien / UFO dreams quite a lot on they really terrify me. They seem so vivid and I can remember each one I’ve had and what happened to me. :/

I don’t care what ‘anon’ hate i get on here. Nobody can tell me how to live me life over a stupid website that doesn’t even mean anything. If people care about issues so strongly they should get off their asses and do something about it. 

I never realised ears are so vascular. I just caught my ear with my nail whilst drying my hair and it is bleeding like crazy! I just dyed my hair and its lovely and soft and silky (which it has actually been a lot really). I have used the L’Oreal Sublime Mousse hair colourant for the last 3 times, and it is definately the best ‘out of the box’ hair dye i have used. Even better than the new John Frieda one. It comes out as it says on the box, i use the darkest brown one, the shade lighter than black, so it is very dark, just off black but not jet black as i think it is too harsh on my skin, being so damn pale. Anyway, im getting a spray tan on Friday, because we are going to Harrogate on Saturday for Katies Birthday, and everybody else is super brown, and me looking half dead and wearing all black, isn’t going to make me look any better. I find having a bit of colour also makes me look more slender too.

Im off to pamper my face as i have 2 tiny spots that need to be gone by next Saturday for Harrogate. Apartment booked, Bettys Tea Rooms booked, buffet and then alcohol!

I am going to attempt to use the face steamer. I havent used it since last year when i dropped it and burnt my leg. I had to go to hospital and it blistered and now i have 2 huge scars on my legs where skin was damaged, and im left trying to use Bio Oil on it everyday so it goes back to skin colour. Im going to be brave and leave it on my windowsill and hover over it. It was pure agony.  

I just looked on my old photos i have tagged on here from 2008/2009. SO cringey. The best thing i ever did was take my lip piercing out / grow my hair and dye it dark. haha. Cute but cringey. 

Chris earlier was taking the piss out of me.

“Hi im natalie, i like tumblr and dieting and jeffrey campbells, Clinique foundation and MAC hipster cosmetics and i like studs because i customise my own clothes and you get 100 for £2 and i sell my clothes on Etsy and im a goth and wear dark lipstick and i love Lady Gaga.” 

“WATCH OUT WE GOT A BADASS OVER HERE”. I told him he got half of that wrong and he’s a little shit. Safe to say we have a fucking weird relationship and we playfight mock each other more than we cuddle. Well, 60% playfighting 40% laughing about it and cuddling. /soppy.

He did then take me to pizza hut and we had a lovely time and now i feel well sluggish / craving bad food. 

I love doing nothing more than being in my room, listening to music, and chilling out all Sundays. I have decided that also Saturdays or Sundays are my ‘can eat whatever i want’ days, as i am currently full on Pizza Hut thanks to Chris. 

Just cant wait for a lie in tomorrow. Struggling through work for the last few days hasn’t been much fun.

Can’t sleep. Legs are crampy and my whole body is still sore and achey from when I had that session at the gym. Hmm maybe I should wake chris up because I can’t sleep :)

Tumblr on iPhones should be banned. Either that or update the app. I had some upsetting news today and today has been a drag, but I’ve realised I need to live my life for myself and not for any other fucker or people that don’t deserve my attention. Going to live myself for me. Keep saving money. When ive paid everything off and saved up for what I need I’m saving up for more ink and my own place. I want my own place so bad. People piss me off so much lately. I’m back to work tomorrow at my normal place of work and I can’t wait to work with my best friend again. The worst part of this though is I have to get the peasant wagon from town to the hospital because my car is in the garage. Hmm. To top everything off my health still isn’t right and now I keep randomly twitching and developing a tic. My head isn’t right. And it isnt in the right place. I want to go away on holiday. On my own. Forever. I want to get out of this city and out of this country. I want to go to Paris now and go to Disney now instead of May. It’s too far away. Ill be 21 there. Where is my life going?

At a restaurant where we have had a meal here 2 nights in a row. Black rock steak is amazing.

Me and Chris are about to watch my Lion King trilogy. Going to sing along to all the songs and be really annoying.

“Be prepared” is my jam.

Stuffed on TGI Fridays. Amazing my boyfriend gets 50% off.